Desert Night
A flower bud opens
As an angel's hair splits apart her skin
Porous desert ground soaks up the blood droplets, rejuvenating life
Cactus bundles splinter at the tips
Five streams of blood flow like ribbons from my fingertips
Five kimonos free to wander
Each wrapped around a pure form of bleached flesh
Unfolding fans snap the wind
Sending rivulets of air toward me
Seducing the thin hairs of an angel

Sweet Dreams
Wrapped in cerulean silk she rules the sky
Fluttering about with her hair flowing in streams behind her
Her delicate touch moves me as she reaches into my mind
Softly and innocently she looks down upon my face
I glow with the warm thoughts that are projected into my head
Lying below her, my inspirations are at her command
I am dancing with her about the air
Sweetly she sings to me about raindrops and flowers
The fog closes in around us
Shadows emerge from all corners of my thoughts
She cackles and becomes all that I am afraid of
She transforms into my failures and faults
With a swift kick, she snaps my neck
Fallen trust turns to dust and scatters around my dead, naked body

My Silent Ruin
He's still there, I can feel him
Sitting and waiting for my decline once more
A decent into my total insanity
Downward I'll fall into the world where all is marked by night
The demons will come out to talk to me
Here, he'll feel at home
This is where he'll come out and shake my hand
Telling me that everything won't be alright
He'll command me and I will follow
We will sit, waiting for the gloom to deepen
Then he'll take action
Controlling me completely
Whispering illogical words into my ears
I'll mistake them for truth because he will be my only friend
He will be the only one there during my madness
Telling me I'm not who I think
Notifying me that I am really a ghost
A poltergeist meant to bring sorrow to all those who surround me
I'm nothing that the world wants here
And slowly, those words will trickle into my mind
Leading me to my silent ruin
Leaving me alone

I Fell in Love For a Moment
My hard nipples protrude through my shirt
It's not that I'm cold
I'm just in love with the image that stands before me
Perfectly framed in the mirror with the lights just so
Eyes sparkling and lips shimmer with a nice pink juiciness
The hair down to my hips flows behind me
Like a piece of the dark night sky, it floats
The light shines off it like stars
My thin figure curves delicately as my torso turns into my hips and thighs
Who wouldn't fall in love with the stunning, beauteous creature before me?
I ponder this reasonable question to myself
And slowly anticipate the day where it will all be real

Higley's
I've made a deep imprint in this couch by now.
Familiar faces flow past me, smiling "hi" and going to another side of the room.
Walls cluttered with art that nobody would ever intend to purchase.
A slight hint of cinnamon in the air.
My warm cup of coffee sits on the short table in front of me, which I occasionally sip.
In truth, I only bought it for show, as not to be accused of loitering.
I look at the ground because if I stared ahead, someone might think I was watching them,
And that would distract me from my thoughts of deeply important matters about nothing.
Besides, I like watching shoes fly past me.
I ponder for a few hours about why I don't share my feelings with someone else,
And yet, I'm perfectly content sitting here,
Sipping my coffee,
Thinking alone.

Arrogant Spelunker
Thinking you have the infinite ability to read my mind,
You know what I'm thinking.
Stop it.
These are my thoughts.
My secrets.
My lies.
Slipping into the depths of my life.
Knowing the basis of my knowledge.
My beliefs.
And yet, you still can't seem to fully understand me.
Then I realized,
You won't ever be able to comprehend my feelings and passions,
If you can't see how they all connect.
And I smile my little smirk 'cause you don't know me like you think.

In My Eyes
She stares back at me
Those open eyes watching judgmentally
That knowing smile
She sees my faults as I do
Just a glimpse into those eyes
I understand all that she is
Carefully moving my eyes around her face
I pick out each disfigurement
Each unique marking
Placing her apart from everyone else
Her eyes study my features as well
Attributes she is all too familiar with
Beautiful in my mind
Beautiful in hers
But different to others
We turn away at the same time
My reflection and I moving in opposite directions down the hall

Happiness
My skin splits apart as the thin blade slowly slides across my wrist.
The incredible pain numbing my emotions.
All I can think about is the blood pouring down my arms and staining the carpet.
I watch it soak deep into the fibers, the emotions deep into my heart.
I lift the razor once more and take it to my other wrist.
I run it across again, this time even harder.
The cut is deeper, more fulfilling.
My eyes roll into my head as I feel the amazing sensation of dizziness.
I float above the world and its problems.
I shiver as I steadily collapse onto the blood soaked floor.
My eyes close and the world vanishes.
I leave in more happiness than I ever felt before.

The Words of Forgiveness
A sad, slow song forms itself to the beating of the raindrops as they slap the ground.
Interrupted occasionally only by the sniffling of my nose.
The bouncing of the rain is the only movement I see outside.
I shiver from the cold that surrounds me.
Little tears form in my eyes as I talk to you.
Suddenly, the rain comes louder. Faster.
I glimpse in your direction and as my eyes trace your face,
I can't help but utter the words.
"I'm sorry."
Our own lack of communication leading us to this torture.
Finally, all is done and feelings are free.
Yet, the sun still remains hidden behind the purple clouds.

Night
Freeze with the night
Feel death pass through me
Dark as cold winter clouds
As my lifeless star falls from the sky.

For Rapunzel
Like Rapunzel, her hair fell to the ground
Simply unwinding and attacking the bare earth
It dragged behind her, picking up the memories along the way
Dusting away the footprints for no one to follow
She cried for her loneliness
But knew it was only her fault
The forgiveness and guilt dripped from her eyes
And bled into the ground, where her hair could not brush them away
Leaving a path for others to find her
And salvaging the remains of her ruined state
To find the true beauty of her soul

Mind over Matter
Rearrange the stars to resemble birds
And make them fly across the clouds
Rhythmically chasing each other
Putting on their show for us
Our own company of dancers in the play for which we are the lovers
Torn apart by our own expectations of each other
Deep in your arms, I lie far away from you
Merely a prop in my fantasy, like I am in yours
As we are two bodies together,
Separated in our ambitious minds and our ideals of perfection
Two stars, jealous of the moon

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Amusing smile.
Alluring smile.
It calls to me with that simple smirk,
As the screams of dying birds would seem harmonious.
Screeching their songs of lust.
Butterflies fluttering.
Dancing.
Flapping.
Struggling.
Don’t let me tell you “I love you”
For admitting it would hurt me more.
As the small seedlings of the dandelion float away with the wind.
Blinding my eyes.